So I slowly realize that I am not yet ready to make ANY decisions bigger than what toothpaste to get or what color nail polish to put on my toes. And this is perfectly OK. I tried working out at the gym I signed up for and I didn’t like it at all. I am listening to and following my gut. I don’t know how or why I fell for this idea of a “gym” gym and what it may bring me. No harm no foul, but I have to say that I felt tricked into joining. My bad really for not making an informed decision. At least I’m cancelling the contract tomorrow…first thing. I hate that I’m going to have to deal with these salespeople in the morning. Pain in my ass. I know I brought this upon myself. I wanted to try something new, which is fine, but I gave in to some seriously pushy salespeople before making an informed decision (or working out the committment in my budget). My falling for this is me not being a “self” and failing a codependency test in my life. My plan from here on out is yoga, getting back into my cardio and strength training at my gym, and eating healthier. I let myself go this past month…I let it happen, observed it, and didn’t judge it until now. I feel not-so-good. It’s now time to get back. I bought myself some healthy groceries today (a few snacks as well) and plan to mealprep for the week, so here goes nothing! I also am doing my laundry. These sound like trivial things, but when you’re depressed, anxious, and preoccupied with God-knows-what and trying to self-care, you tend to put the rest on the back-burner. I’m just signed up for a free trial of a TV streaming service that I will likely keep! I am watching the golden globes as I drink my kombucha and clean up my place. Not bad! These are all forms of self-care. I just need to keep it up.